Guys, I'm going to post this hoping it might help someone out. I'm not going to get preachy, but hope to tell a story of a road that I have been down for a while, and I just did a 180. If anyone is interested in the gospel private message me, but that is not going here. I like to fish and hunt; heck will try just about anything outdoors. If I lived in a different state, would probably not be on this forum cause I would have a fly rod in my hand. Anyway, back on topic. I do not make a ton of money, and have chosen to buy a house that is bigger than I need, three cars, (one for the senior in high school), you know the drill, and get the picture. I have managed to cobble together camo to hunt in from the surplus store, hunted with an old model used bow, fish with ugly sticks that I have acquired over multiple years with various reels; you get the picture and know the drill. Well enter YouTube. Started watching, ... Now I'm thinking and attempting to plant food plots, and needing to update my boat, have to have this, need to have that, should fish 3 times per week, need a bait freezer, a bigger cast net,... Well it started eating me. I was angry that I could not afford blank, or tried to build a copy of something and it only kind of worked. I got angrier and angrier. Throw in health issues and work stress, and I became a bomb, that would go off at the slightest tap. I made life heck for my wife and daughters for far too long. Fortunately a friend stepped forward and got my attention may have saved my marriage. So, now, refocusing on priorities. May even go talk to a counselor. My senior will be gone next fall, and only have 4 more years with my freshman. I still love to hunt and fish, will definitely get out again, but don't know when, and that's ok. Have a boat build over budget and currently stalled, and that's ok. I will finish that, some day, and will post what I learned, but now need to focus on some other things that are more important than catching an over slot blue. If anyone else headed down this road, I can tell you, keeping on that road does not lead to contentment, just loneliness and anger. Hope it helps. Just be human, and enjoy the season of life you are in. I'm not looking for sympathy, honestly just want to help a guy look in the mirror if he's out there. If not, fine, hope you all catch a monster.