I am not a negative person by nature and i don't often get the Blaughs but tonight I've got things rolling around in my head i need to get rid of. I hope you don't mind me doing it here. First off I've been feeling really down because Beth and i cant make the Henderson gathering. Its something that we have been looking forward to for quite a while and although Ive known for three weeks we weren't going to make it, now its starting to get to me. I don't know if i can make you understand this or not but i will try. Living up here in the Northeast i feel very isolated from you folks. I am not a native New Yorker and the people up here are just not the same kind of folks that live in the South. I'm not saying there aren't good people up here, there are. They just aren't as open and friendly and a lot of them are very standoffish. I guess i just miss the hospitality and laidback personality of southern folks. It also bothers me that i have no one to fish with. My sons work schedule has changed and he wont be able to go out much this summer if at all. There are several N.Y. members that live within fifteen miles of me but i get the feeling there not interested in going fishing with a old man. I used to love going fishing by myself, but as I've gotten older i miss the company of having someone with me. When i entered the fish off i figured i would have some one with me to take pictures which i don't, so now i feel like I'm letting the team down. My wife is working a lot of hrs. so she hasn't been able to go. Beth told me yesterday she is having second thoughts about moving south because of our two Grand Kids. I know all this sounds petty when you consider all the crap that goes on in this world, but sometimes you need a friend to listen. You guys just happen to be the best friends i have. Thanks for lending a ear, who knows what tomorrow brings.