well thanks all for the prayers. im still speaking in person or phone to my still wife as of now anyway every day. i had the kids all weekend. were having a ball. i didnt relize how much the alcohol had control of my life till i woke up. 17 days now and ive lost 21 lbs and look like im 25 again. clean shaven and feeling wonderful. i was 310 lbs when this happened. and now am 289. shooting for 250 or less by x-mas and 190-195 by spring. im picking the wife and lil one up at 11:30 to take them to eat lunch. she lets me call her whenever i want and talks to me alone every time i see her. last report. "im not ready yet" so its not a no. im finding myself and liking what i see. i pray with my sons when they leave. i have prayed with her. and i pray alone. thanks. whatever happens im healing and will be better off than i was before. i have my life my kids and getting ahold of my looks again. me and the kids have been out for pizza, to the park, to the nature center, to the mall for hot pretzels, played monopoly. i never relized how fun it was whan i was always worried about how many beers i had left in the fridge. so all you young guys. remember. moderation or none. i couldnt control it. so im giving it up for good.